You grow up and realize those who are really there for you. Friends come and go. People walk in and out of my life everyday. It’s no biggie though. Keep it moving.
(Source: lovemewithflawsandall)
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Friend: Hey what's wrong? You seem quiet.
Mind: I'm insecure, I'm slacking in my classes, All my "friends" are fake, I'm restless and tired and hopeless. I dread getting out of bed in the morning. I start crying out of the blue, I'm worthless, hopeless, and I can't take it anymore. No one seems to notice though.
Me: *puts on a smile*Nothing, sorry just tired lately, no big deal.
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You grow up and realize those who are really there for you. Friends come and go. People walk in and out of my life everyday. It’s no biggie though. Keep it moving. (Source: lovemewithflawsandall)
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Dear Tumblr. Sorry, I’ve been abandoned yu for what…almost a year? guess yu can say I’m a pretty bad blogger. For the past month though, I’ve been reading so many people’s blogs, and boy am i fascinated. When i read other peoples blogs…the REAL peoples blogs, it makes me quite excited & want to start blogging again. I honestly don’t know what i would blog about, but I guess I’ll take it one step at a time. At first I thought “omgg, people are gonna actually get to know things about me that I haven’t told anyone” but now its: who cares. Life is Life. I have to stop hiding from the world. I have to stop being afraid. Afraid of Love. Afraid of the world. Afraid of You.
Dear Tumblr.
Sorry, I’ve been abandoned yu for what…almost a year? guess yu can say I’m a pretty bad blogger. For the past month though, I’ve been reading so many people’s blogs, and boy am i fascinated. When i read other peoples blogs…the REAL peoples blogs, it makes me quite excited & want to start blogging again. I honestly don’t know what i would blog about, but I guess I’ll take it one step at a time. At first I thought “omgg, people are gonna actually get to know things about me that I haven’t told anyone” but now its: who cares. Life is Life. I have to stop hiding from the world. I have to stop being afraid. Afraid of Love. Afraid of the world. Afraid of You.
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sometimes i just want to cry. im not quite sure why. no actually i am. ah idk, this thing called life confuses the shit outta me
sometimes i just want to cry.
im not quite sure why. no actually i am. ah idk, this thing called life confuses the shit outta me
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all smiles tonight was one of the best night’s i’ve everr had. I went to a club type thing where people from different cultures danced ( i was one of the performers : ) ] it was soo friggin’ fun ! when everyone else was done performing, they planned music and everyone got on the dance floor & started jamminnnn’ :D
they mostly played salsa and merengue ( two dances i cnt dance) but i tried & made a fool of myself :) i was with my friends which put a bigger smile on my facee. my night kinda ended early when my mom came to pick me up, but its all good, at least i got out the housee. finally . . :]
now im sitting here, listening to more merengue, still in the party mood lol well, gonna kep jammin by myself . .till next time
all smiles
tonight was one of the best night’s i’ve everr had. I went to a club type thing where people from different cultures danced ( i was one of the performers : ) ] it was soo friggin’ fun ! when everyone else was done performing, they planned music and everyone got on the dance floor & started jamminnnn’ :D
they mostly played salsa and merengue ( two dances i cnt dance) but i tried & made a fool of myself :) i was with my friends which put a bigger smile on my facee. my night kinda ended early when my mom came to pick me up, but its all good, at least i got out the housee. finally . . :]
now im sitting here, listening to more merengue, still in the party mood lol well, gonna kep jammin by myself . .till next time
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soo . . it’s 9am and i been up since about 6:3o. why? im not really sure. for the past, 2 weeks? i been feeling so down …like im missing something, perhaps someone, in my life. im looking at my dunkin donuts ice coffee right now. how the melted ice slids down the cup; almost how my life is sliding down the friggin’ drain. beyonce’s playing too , broken hearted girl, got me in a sad mood. im not even sure why. damn i say that alot . “im not sure why” sometimes im the happiest person alive, other times i cry for no reason. this morning i just woke up feeling so insecure and ehhh. i look a mess right now, feel a mess right now, my mind is a mess right now. i need to get back to the old me. the girl who always hadda smile on her face. the girl who never let negative people and negative energy, bring her down. i was the girl who felt beautiful and like i was in this world for a reason. the quietness burns my soul and i dnt think i can take it anymore. i always feel like i need a change. whether its changing my room around, or somethng so simple as pampering myself, or buying new things i dnt need. & still i feel the same. im not sure why though. dammnit, here i go again. somethings jst not right. pink’s playing now, “sober” damn that song hit me. mann idk , i feel like crap ! my family notices too, well my mom at least; & i jst play it off like im fine, but she knoes the truth. idk what i need to do to feel different, but i need to do something. who knoes what that “something” is , but im determined to find it.
im looking at old pics from like last year of me and my friends. ex friends. only exactly one of them is still my close friend. i dnt think i have the balls so post picks of me old friends & I. too many good memories.. i was so happy and i remeber just being full of light. now im in the darkness. been like that for awhile now . .welcomee to the old me. vvvvvv
i remeber this day so clearly. i was so damn happy
my hair looks absoultely crazy, but not as crazy & happy as i felt that day
theres plenty more, but im to lazy to post ‘em.
Well , that was me. bRb, im gonna go tryda find her again .
soo . .
it’s 9am and i been up since about 6:3o. why? im not really sure. for the past, 2 weeks? i been feeling so down …like im missing something, perhaps someone, in my life. im looking at my dunkin donuts ice coffee right now. how the melted ice slids down the cup; almost how my life is sliding down the friggin’ drain. beyonce’s playing too , broken hearted girl, got me in a sad mood. im not even sure why. damn i say that alot . “im not sure why” sometimes im the happiest person alive, other times i cry for no reason. this morning i just woke up feeling so insecure and ehhh. i look a mess right now, feel a mess right now, my mind is a mess right now. i need to get back to the old me. the girl who always hadda smile on her face. the girl who never let negative people and negative energy, bring her down. i was the girl who felt beautiful and like i was in this world for a reason. the quietness burns my soul and i dnt think i can take it anymore. i always feel like i need a change. whether its changing my room around, or somethng so simple as pampering myself, or buying new things i dnt need. & still i feel the same. im not sure why though. dammnit, here i go again. somethings jst not right. pink’s playing now, “sober” damn that song hit me. mann idk , i feel like crap ! my family notices too, well my mom at least; & i jst play it off like im fine, but she knoes the truth. idk what i need to do to feel different, but i need to do something. who knoes what that “something” is , but im determined to find it.
im looking at old pics from like last year of me and my friends. ex friends. only exactly one of them is still my close friend. i dnt think i have the balls so post picks of me old friends & I. too many good memories.. i was so happy and i remeber just being full of light. now im in the darkness. been like that for awhile now . .welcomee to the old me. vvvvvv
i remeber this day so clearly. i was so damn happy
my hair looks absoultely crazy, but not as crazy & happy as i felt that day
theres plenty more, but im to lazy to post ‘em.
Well , that was me. bRb, im gonna go tryda find her again .
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ignorance is your new best friend i heart them. i really do. <3333
If I’m a bad person, you don’t like me Well I guess I’ll make my own way It’s a circle A mean cycle I can’t excite you anymore Where’s your gavel? Your jury? What’s my offense this time? You’re not a judge but if you’re gonna judge me Well sentence me to another life Don’t wanna hear your sad songs I don’t wanna feel your pain When you swear it’s all my fault Cause you know we’re not the same(no) We’re not the same(no) Oh we’re not the same Yeah the friends who stuck together We wrote our names in blood But I guess you can’t accept that the change is good(hey) It’s good(hey) It’s good Well you treat me just like another stranger Well it’s nice to meet you sir I guess I’ll go I best be on my way out You treat me just like another stranger Well it’s nice to meet you sir I guess I’ll go I best be on my way out Ignorance is your new best friend Ignorance is your new best friend This is the best thing that could’ve happened Any longer and I wouldn’t have made it It’s not a war no, it’s not a rapture I’m just a person but you can’t take it The same tricks that, that once fooled me They won’t get you anywhere I’m not the same kid from your memory Well now I can fend for myself Don’t wanna hear your sad songs I don’t wanna feel your pain When you swear it’s all my fault Cause you know we’re not the same(no) We’re not the same(no) Oh we’re not the same Yeah we used to stick together We wrote our names in blood But I guess you can’t accept that the change is good(hey) It’s good(hey) It’s good Well you treat me just like another stranger Well it’s nice to meet you sir I guess I’ll go I best be on my way out You treat me just like another stranger Well it’s nice to meet you sir I guess I’ll go I best be on my way out Ignorance is your new best friend Ignorance is your new best friend Ignorance is your new best friend Ignorance is your new best friend Well you treat me just like another stranger Well it’s nice to meet you sir I guess I’ll go I best be on my way out You treat me just like another stranger Well it’s nice to meet you sir I guess I’ll go I best be on my way out
ignorance is your new best friend
i heart them. i really do. <3333
If I’m a bad person, you don’t like me
Well I guess I’ll make my own way
It’s a circle
A mean cycle
I can’t excite you anymore
Where’s your gavel? Your jury?
What’s my offense this time?
You’re not a judge but if you’re gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life
Don’t wanna hear your sad songs
I don’t wanna feel your pain
When you swear it’s all my fault
Cause you know we’re not the same(no)
We’re not the same(no)
Oh we’re not the same
Yeah the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can’t accept that the change is good(hey)
It’s good(hey)
It’s good
Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it’s nice to meet you sir
I guess I’ll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it’s nice to meet you sir
I guess I’ll go
I best be on my way out
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
This is the best thing that could’ve happened
Any longer and I wouldn’t have made it
It’s not a war no, it’s not a rapture
I’m just a person but you can’t take it
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won’t get you anywhere
I’m not the same kid from your memory
Well now I can fend for myself
Don’t wanna hear your sad songs
I don’t wanna feel your pain
When you swear it’s all my fault
Cause you know we’re not the same(no)
We’re not the same(no)
Oh we’re not the same
Yeah we used to stick together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can’t accept that the change is good(hey)
It’s good(hey)
It’s good
Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it’s nice to meet you sir
I guess I’ll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it’s nice to meet you sir
I guess I’ll go
I best be on my way out
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it’s nice to meet you sir
I guess I’ll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it’s nice to meet you sir
I guess I’ll go
I best be on my way out
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hello martians .
‘pretty new to this thingg. well not really; but i’m known for trying new things. not here to judge anyone or harm anyone, just here to express ME. the way people live their lives and promote themselves is quite interesting to me. i’m no different from you , yet im not one of the crowd. im often mistaken for something im certaintly not & i would like to clear the air. nah scratch that, i am who i am. i cannot hide or scare away the person i am and i apologize if it’s not something so entertaining. my life is a blur , its pretty clear to see. i take it day by day , step by step , time by time; but it seems as if im waiting for something or perhaps someone, but what is it ? who is it ? im not sure. i guess all i can do is wait; i wll alert you though, my moods go in & out. hour by hour. i feel a different way every single minute. im not sure if thats normal, but im not here to be “normal”, im here to bee mee.
im shani though. welcome to my l i f e .
hello martians .
‘pretty new to this thingg. well not really; but i’m known for trying new things. not here to judge anyone or harm anyone, just here to express ME. the way people live their lives and promote themselves is quite interesting to me. i’m no different from you , yet im not one of the crowd. im often mistaken for something im certaintly not & i would like to clear the air. nah scratch that, i am who i am. i cannot hide or scare away the person i am and i apologize if it’s not something so entertaining. my life is a blur , its pretty clear to see. i take it day by day , step by step , time by time; but it seems as if im waiting for something or perhaps someone, but what is it ? who is it ? im not sure. i guess all i can do is wait; i wll alert you though, my moods go in & out. hour by hour. i feel a different way every single minute. im not sure if thats normal, but im not here to be “normal”, im here to bee mee.
im shani though. welcome to my l i f e .
